Weight Loss Journey 1: The Journey to Success is Not A Straight Line

road-675538_1920***This post first appeared on SparkPeople on August 7, 2009***

I always say that one of my favorite and least favorite things about the small town I grew up in is that it never changes. That, of course, is one of the reasons I was eager to leave there when I graduated high school. Now, it’s one of the things that draws be back years later. Isn’t it funny how things that we love about something can also cause us immense frustration?  It’s like when you first start dating someone and something they do is really endearing; years later it drives you crazy.

Right now I’m finding that one of the things that caused the most frustration when I first began my weight-loss journey is bringing me comfort- the fact that weight-loss and health is a long-term process, and one day won’t make or break you. Lately I’ve not been practicing the  best eating or exercise habits, and I’m definitely feeling it in my energy level, sleep patterns, and attitude. However, I know that one day, even one week, of bad habits won’t stop my progress as long as I’m committed to be health on a long-term basis (which I am).  I know that although I was quite a bit over my caloric range for more than one day in the last week, it’s not the end of the world.

Fortunately, because I have such a strong desire to not only maintain the progress I’ve made, but also to continue on my journey, I’ve not gained any significant amount of weight back, despite my poor habits. In fact, when I measured myself on Tuesday I found that I’m continuing to drop inches in some areas. I do feel a difference in how I feel, my posture seems to be more stooped and I just feel tired. The majority of the changes I’ve noticed in my body physically, however, persist. My desire to continue on my journey is overriding my fatigue and sometimes annoyance at being accountable to myself.  I continue to log all the calories I’ve eaten even though I have one over.  I don’t like myself when I deliberately eat something that is over my caloric range, but I’ve done it anyway.  Mostly, I’m angry at myself for not treating my body better, because I know I deserve better and that I’m worth the effort. All that being said….one day doesn’t make or break you. Because of the foundation I’ve laid for healthy habits since the beginning, I know I will continue on my journey despite the fact that I’ve stepped off the path a couple of times.  It’s ironic that I was so frustrated in the beginning that my healthy habits were not yielding immediate results; now I’m very glad that a couple days of poor habits are not yielding immediate results-the progress I’ve made so far remains unchanged.  People at work are still commenting on how much weight I’m continuing to lose, and that’s encouraging as well. I like being able to tell people the amount of pounds I’ve dropped is increasing. Additionally, I’m impressed at myself; the drive to be better seems to be stronger than I initially realized. It’s forced me to remember what I really want, why I really want it, why I deserve it, and to remind myself that I have to work for it.  I’m thankful I wrote the post, Focused and Philosophical, that outlined all of these things when I was experiencing one of those initial attitude “highs”.  It has forced me to remember what I’m working for, and that there are other people relying on me to succeed besides myself. All these emotions seem to conflict but instead of kicking myself for making poor decisions, I’m commending myself for being angry at myself for those decisions. I need to be accountable to what I want, and I’m holding myself to that standard because I know it’s something I can achieve. Tomorrow is another day–no, TODAY is another day, another opportunity to turn it all around.

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Inquiring minds want to know: What is all this business about Weight Loss Journey 1 and Weight Loss Journey 2?

Weight Loss Journey 1: I lost 75 pounds from 2009-2011; I’m reposting the blog posts I wrote on Sparkpeople during that time

Weight Loss Journey 2: I have gained back the majority of the weight I lost and have been on a quest since July 2015 to lose the weight again.

Sorry about the timing of the posts, I know that’s probably confusing. But they are only appearing at the same time because I didn’t start my blog earlier. It may be helpful to read the posts by category if you want to catch up. Enjoy!

About bridget

I was born and raised in upstate New York, where my parents still live, before escaping the cold weather to settle in North Carolina in 2008.
I am a Gemini, a middle child, a dreamer, a lover, an optimist, and a Social Worker. I have a cheesy sense of humor, a belief that all people are basically good, and a desire to improve the world around me.
I live in NC with my husband and our dog.

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